2014 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

I am so proud of myself. I posted about once a week!! I’m happy to have been in the experiment of blogging. I feel like I’ve scratched that itch and have found that I like it, but as of yet, don’t love it as much as I thought I might have.  I’m happy for the experience and what I’ve learned about using this online platform.  I plan to continue blogging once in a while, seeing how else the process may develop. Thanks for joining me 🙂

Here’s an excerpt:

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 5,000 times in 2014. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 4 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.


8 Sobering Realizations


1 Year of not drinking alcohol has shown me:

1) I can do it.

2) The hardest part of making a change- is making the decision. Once I made the decision, it was easy.

3) There are other ways of being together with people that is fun and engaging, that doesn’t involve alcohol.

4) It’s up to me to make that fun-engaging-togetherness happen.

5) I have interests and passions (Which include: video production, body movement {yoga, acro, DANCE}, drawing, making chocolate, talking in accents)

6) I still binge eat

7) Alcohol is a handy excuse to not go live the life I want. And so is eating. Or working. Or complaining.  And I suspect I could go on forever ‘giving things up’ that are ‘in my way’ of living the life I want. But what’s probably more important than any of that is- GOING AND LIVING THE LIFE I WANT.

8) I still want to drink.


Alcohol Freedom

I have been alcohol-free for almost 10 months.

I am so glad I have done this experiment. I am most grateful to be FREE FROM CRAVINGS!

Not having to stress about my relationship to alcohol, is sooo nice.  Alcohol has become a non-issue in my life.

What freedom!

PeanutButter Chocolate Brownie Perfection!


I am in love. With this concoction. With myself for putting it together. For the combination of peanut butter and chocolate. For recipes that contain whole foods with healthy fats. Yay!

Inspired by the brownie recipe from Rawsome Vegan Life.

With my Special Peanut Butter Sauce that I am obsessed with.

1 part peanut butter with a little less than 1 part coconut oil

Melt and mix together

Add about:

1 tsp cinnamon

1/8-1/4cup maple syrup

1/2 tsp salt

Can you tell recipes aren’t my strong suite? Just throw some things together and adjust to taste!


Sober at My Best Friend’s Wedding

Trading Pints of Beer for Pints of Ben&Jerry’s

What is it about my life that has kept me on that path?  How come I am able to Begin Again and maintain healthy routines?  I know what it’s like to feel under the spell of food, sweets, and coffee, and why am I able to pull myself away?

My theory right now is that I am able to come back to the path because I have been here before.  And the more time I spend feeling the positive effects of living my life a certain way, the more likely I am to come back to it.  Having the experience of feeling alive in my mind, body, soul is most important.

Therefore, putting myself in a structured experiment of living a certain way is very important and does serve.  ‘Forcing’ myself to eat a certain way for a month, and therefore reap the benefits is what is going to help me come back to this lifestyle if I stray.

Again I am reminded of the importance of PRACTICE.  Living a healthy lifestyle takes practice.  Begin again, begin again, begin again.

What beliefs am I stepping into today?

I love taking care of my body.
I love eating fresh fruits and vegetables.
I am passionate about sticking to my goals thus I only eat sweets once in a while.
I love moving my body, I am passionate about moving my body, I move my body as much as I can via yoga, running, stretching, acro, gymnastics, dance, hooping, walking, conditioning, anything!

Feeling energized, focused, awake, happy, relaxed, able, strong is so important to me and so attainable that I easily and happily eat vibrant fresh food, move my body often, meditate, and maintain routines.

This video pumps me up!! Focus on a goal!

7 Months Sober


Rarely do I regret not drinking.

Why am I doing this? To practice saying NO to drinking. 
Right now I feel like I will return to drinking next year… but with the goal of often saying no to drinking.  Refraining from drinking now is strengthening my ‘saying no’ muscle.

I am excited about the new practice of not talking about my story around not drinking, and instead simply saying no and leaving it at that. 

Seems like it’s harder to limit my drinking, than it is to not drink at all.  Therefore next year I may make some commitments around practicing drinking less as a way to continue having a balanced relationship with alcohol.

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